I'm all alone In the rain.

Thursday, November 09, 2006


Market Economy of Love

Filipino Soap Operas have always the same plot; rich person and poor person meets, they fall in love, and they conquer all odds. The love life in reality is so romanticized up to the point of total absurdity.

This is not the reality of love....

In reality, Love is like a market economy and your purchasing power are your looks. It's not concerned with people ending up with their soulmates. Its concerned about about the good looking people experiencing superficial attraction. Let's face it, in every one of us is a hypocrite. On the guys, I dont need to explain. However, Girls complain that all guys are Manyaks who love girls with beautiful faces and hot bodies, but if you would look at it, they also want every guy to be a walking Brad Pitt. How hypocritical is that? Look around you; who always bicker about the shallowness of the opposite sex? Of their superficiality?

But NO!!! As hard for you to believe, there are sincere guys also. But the irony of it is that they're the ones who get rejected!! They're the ones who get ignored!! Their sincerity is cast aside just because they dont look like Brad Pitt or Johnny Depp. Be ashamed....

the love you can't have lasts the longest, feels the strongest, and hurts the most
Still feeling the pouring rain at 10:00 PM

Thursday, October 12, 2006


Dante's Inferno test


Fifth Level of Hell
The river Styx runs through this level of Hell, and in it are punished the wrathful and the gloomy. The former are forever lashing out at each other in anger, furious and naked, tearing each other piecemeal with their teeth. The latter are gurgling in the black mud, slothful and sullen, withdrawn from the world. Their lamentations bubble to the surface as they try to repeat a doleful hymn, though with unbroken words they cannot say it. Because you lived a cruel, vindictive and hateful life, you meet your fate in the Styx.
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
(Click on a level for more info)
Level
Who are sent there?
Score
Purgatory
Repenting Believers
Low
Level 1 - Limbo
Virtuous Non-Believers
Very Low
Level 2
Lustful
Very Low
Level 3
Gluttonous
High
Level 4
Prodigal and Avaricious
Very Low
Level 5
Wrathful and Gloomy
Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis
Heretics
Very Low
Level 7
Violent
High
Level 8- the Malebolge
Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers
High
Level 9 - Cocytus
Treacherous
Moderate

http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-test2.mv?stat=1&xyz=2

the love you can't have lasts the longest, feels the strongest, and hurts the most
Still feeling the pouring rain at 8:17 PM

Saturday, September 30, 2006


NO BIG DEAL
I almost got killed in the storm last thursday. I almost got hit by a flying yero, you know, the roof of a house. If that yero hit me, I would've been beheaded right that instant.
But no, I was able to dodge it.
My sister told me to pray, and I pretended that I did
You think He saved me? No. He just doesn't want me to go to hell and take over.

the love you can't have lasts the longest, feels the strongest, and hurts the most
Still feeling the pouring rain at 2:34 PM

Saturday, September 09, 2006


Bitter Comments

Ok, realizaton: I have become a bitter person who is angry with the world so sue me if you want.


I spit on the unfair world where the fiends get recognized and the sincere get rejected and ignored...

God has been trying to teach me humility with all the unfortunate events that are happening in my life but what have I got to be proud of in the first place except for my sincerity?

Some girls can be so hypocritical. They always bicker about how men are so adulterous, rude, and insensitive. But in the end, they fall for these kinds of men.

It's hurtful how girls say that all guys are superficial but the truth is, they're not so clean themselves because deep down, they wish that every man is walking Brad Pitt.

Death to the plastics!! Death to the hypocrites!!

Skill in theater should not be used in putting a false face in front of a person.

Users: Anyone who sends an sms message only when they need something from you.

the love you can't have lasts the longest, feels the strongest, and hurts the most
Still feeling the pouring rain at 7:00 PM

Saturday, August 12, 2006


Tanaga ng Pagmamahal

Sa pagsikat ng araw,
Bawat kilos at galaw,
Bawat isip at tanaw,
Tibok ng puso'y ikaw

Punyal

Ang kirot sa puso
ay parang punyal
Dunadanak ang dugo
sa bawat saksak
namumuo
tumitigas ang tumitibok na puso
sa bawat iyong salita
na nagpapakirot
sa aking puso

the love you can't have lasts the longest, feels the strongest, and hurts the most
Still feeling the pouring rain at 5:37 PM


JUDGEMENT CARD
The Judgment card is often referred to as a time of resurrection and awakening, a time when a phase or period of our life comes to an absolute end making way for dynamic new beginnings.It may be that a long-term relationship or marriage has had its time and whilst it may feel painful to accept this finality, the Judgment card is saying try and accept that this is a time of fast-moving, positive change and action for you.Whether it’s the end of a career, a time when your children have flown the nest, or a turn of events that make you wish your life was different, this card represents karmic change and it indicates that bigger and better things are yet to come into your life.Quite often, fantastic events and opportunities follow sad and difficult challenges and this card can represent any events that may feel like ‘Judgment Day’ has come. Changes that may be indicated upon the appearance of this card can be significant, so this would not be a time for regret and fear but a time for courage and rejoicing in what you have achieved and what you are yet to achieve.Your life may well pick up a pace when this card appears, so whatever future possibilities are indicated in your reading, these events may happen quite quickly.If the Judgment card comes up in a reading about legal issues, it is a positive sign that any ruling will be in your favor. However, if this card is surrounded by negative cards, it may indicate legal battles ahead and the possibility of having a ruling made against youIn general readings, if this card is surrounded by negative cards, it could be that the swift conclusions foretold by the positive aspect of this card may be delayed. This can mean that you are fearful of such significant change and may be ignoring opportunities that may well promise a brighter future. I also feel that when this card comes up, it’s important to use your own judgment wisely and not to judge yourself too harshly. It is a signal for you to open your heart and mind to accept that all things come to an end and nothing lasts forever, yet for each ending there is always a new beginning.Embrace such significant and inevitable change and a whole new world of opportunity can unfold for you – the Judgment card is a calling for you to be all that you can be.

the love you can't have lasts the longest, feels the strongest, and hurts the most
Still feeling the pouring rain at 5:34 PM

Sunday, August 06, 2006


But no, I'm not hoping anymore, but I don't want to move on even though others assured me that there's a better place for me out there and they even offered their help...

the love you can't have lasts the longest, feels the strongest, and hurts the most
Still feeling the pouring rain at 6:19 PM

Tuesday, August 01, 2006


Oh Lord strike me down with your Divine Fury!!! And Burn my heart down to ashes!!! For it beats with a love for a cold and insensitive person. But despite all her coldness and taking advantage.. I still love her...

the love you can't have lasts the longest, feels the strongest, and hurts the most
Still feeling the pouring rain at 10:16 PM


Darkness
Walking in the dark
While bearing my broken heart
Please end this torture

Reality
Perfect I am not
True love, this is all I have
This is who I am

Heart of Woe
Beating heart of woe
I hear your cries of anguish
While thinking of her

the love you can't have lasts the longest, feels the strongest, and hurts the most
Still feeling the pouring rain at 7:48 PM


name: Jessie De Leon
age: 19
school: University of Asia and the Pacific
Occupation: Keeper of Secrets/confidant/Spirit of Vengeance/Selfish Soul
Destiny: None/Hollow

Reminders
Anyone who insults me becoz of my drama in my OWN blog, shove your insults up your spine.
Those who think that I'm selfish, pigheaded, and self-centered, well boohoo, do everyone a favor and burn in hell.


Words of Wisdom:


Never let anybody impose on you on how you should be happy and if you should be for you are your own person.


Motto:


Everything happens for a reason



Love Quote:


To Love is to feel both pain and pleasure everytime your heart beats



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