The Chariot card has appeared... fate is beckoning me to stand up again...

This means one thing, a struglle inside me has been there for so long that the tarots have been forced to slap it in my face just to get my attention. The sturggle can be an empty feeling, non-stop misfortunes, or lost love... I don't know, maybe all of them?

This card is an omen that I should take control again and break the habits that are hindering me from attaining my goal. Duh! I started doing that a month ago which means that my efforts are not enough. What else should I give up? Almost everything that I held dear is now gone. I gave up my safety, my sanity, my pride, my inclination for emotional writing, and most of all, my ability to love...

I already threw away everything that made me unique... What else can God ask for?

Well, on the bright side, at least I'm in the right track.

Feels like I've shunned myself again from the world. Let's see.. What had happened...

First of all, I'd like to say sorry to Ramch for not coming to their gimmick, I'm sorry but I have my reasons.

Can I just say, Mentored Classes are the biggest hassle in the UAP system!! They completely messed up my schedule. Instead of taking Mandarin, I had to re-arrange my planned schedule and go for Spanish. ut the problem is, my sister required me to take Mandarin. Darn it.

I also spent three days in the hospital. My second sister was hospitalized due to throat infection and had to be confined for medical tests. She just got out yesterday.

In my playlist, Ulan by Cueshe has been officially deleted. It's one big step that I took in forgetting everything that was painful in my life. Althogh for sme strange reason, I'm really enjoying Linkin Park. Hehehe.

Also, I've been having dreams about so many weird things (actually some of them creepy). An example of my weird dreams would be last night. It's like I had an "arty" flashback. I just relived my Glee Club days, my ISA days, and for the grand finale, my play in Civ102 (although I screwed up in my lines during the dream).

And finally, I never thought this would happen but I just finished Harry Potter book 5 (Order of the Phoenix). Out of intense boredom, I found a Harry Potter book in the sala (although I still don't know the ownder) and since I didn't have anything to do, I decided to give it a go. To my surprise after ten chapters, I was actually enjoying it. Now I know why Addison and Paolo would go bonkers with this book.

Well, that's about it. Although I still haven't finished my other blog, I think I'll just leave it as a pending job and resume it at the end of the semester. Anyway, that's it, no Drama hahahaha:D