Too many sins committed
Too much redemption needed
I guess for me, it's too late
Nothing to do but accept my fate

I fear that nobody could ever tell
How great my pain is, worse than hell
Tortured for eternity, inside my emotional cell
Amidst my oblivion where my soul fell

I spoke the truth that I'd never hurt you
So I guess I'll just have to let go
There's no use in holding on much longer
'coz between us, there can never be a forever
But deep in my heart, your memory will always linger.

EnD

Wounds too deep
Heart will soon slip
Into oblivion while I sleep
Amidst the darkness that creeps

Soul is shattered
Broken pieces too scattered
Prayers were never heard
Because for Him, none of it mattered

Spring Wind will never come
Punishment will never be done
Into my oblivion i shall linger
Drowning in pain forever
To suffer 'til my last breath
To be released only upon Death

If love conquers all,
Then why did it cause my fall?

To be continued

I never meant to get out of line
I never wanted to make her mine

When I fall in love, I fall HARD... I may not be the best man in world or even the best writer in history but one thing's for sure, I possess the genuine love that only a handful of men nowadays have...

Friday night was the most memorable night of my entire life. It was the night under the witness of the stars and the moon shining from above the Ortigas night sky, where I poured my heart out and bared my soul. I let it all out swallowing my pride and dignity. And I did it all in one night as the cool night breeze swirled around us.

And finally, after all the words, there as the embrace. Somehow, within those arms, I found my little piece of heaven and Nirvana. Within those arms, time stopped and all of the insecurities in my mind and impurities in my soul vanished temporarily. I forgot everything. All I wanted was to stay like that forever. And the figure that I held in my embrace, the most beautiful thing that i've ever seen and my most cherished memory. She was my world that i revolved around at. Everything that i did, it was all for the purpose of pleasing her (although sometimes, I would rebel with jealousy). Somehow as she pressed herself within my embrace, at that moment, I felt that I could protect her from anything. i could shield her from all the flaws of the world and anything that would dare harm her would have to go through my grave first.

i just hoped that during those two miutes, she heard the echoes and whispers of my heart, calling out her name and telling her how much i love her and how much i care for her. I wish that she was able to look at my heart and see its four chambers, all beating in unison because of her. How I wish that she was able to feel the essence of my soul to let her know how complete it is at that moment because of her presence.

And now, I must lve with the consequences of my actions. By pouring my heart and baring my soul, I unconsciously conured up a wall between us. A wall that will divide us forever not physically but emotionally. But that's ok, my heart is happy and my soul was able to attain peace even though it was only a single moment. A moment that I would cherish forever. I never desired to make her mine. All I wanted was to make her happy. My heart beats for her and her smile makes my soul shine and I will continue to live for her and change for the better.

Last day of the semester...
Time really passes by like a haze if you get pre-occupied in your nightly reverie. Somehow, I'm torned between two sides of the coin... I feel nervous for the coming of the next semester because by that time, I;'ll be entering in a world full of computers and algorithms (not to mention a lot of calculus). However, I also feel so sad becuase I'm about to leave my friends in my old block because I have subjects that are not in their curriculum meaning that I'm going to have classes exclusively for my course only. Such is the pain of parting from loved ones...

I really enjoyed myself at Block C... I got a deeper sense of philosophy (thanks to my English paper) and I got to know myself more. Also, I was able to help some of my friends both in academic and personal aspects. Block C is like a big learning experience for me

The only regret that I have ever since I got here is the time I wasted, all the days and weeks of sneering at other people whom I have judged harshly.. I don't wanna hate anymore, I don't want to harbor anger and hatred. I have calmed the tempest in my soul long ago and I'm not about to revive it again. I just hope that someday, I'll just be friends with everyone (except for the backstabber) and forget all the internal conflicts and plotting in the shadows that happened during this semester...

To all Block C, I wish you all the best because you deserve it:D

If there was one thing that I learned, it's the fact that Fairness is NEVER the governing factor of life for no good person would die early if it ruled the world. No drug lord would become filthy rich because of his damnable goods. No corrupt politician would be able to squander the taxes of his country. No mob boss would be able to take hold of the safety of a whole city. Justice would not be blind. Nobody would be above the law. And most of all, nobody would be taken for granted....

Life is unfair... No matter how hard you try to be good to people, there are still a handful of them who will either scrutinize you, step on you, and even use you. They will take advantage of you... laugh at you behind your back for being such a loser... Such is the iniquitous side of man....