Sunday, May 21, 2006
THIS WEEK'S CARD: THE HANGED MAN
They say that going back to someone or something from your past isn’t normally a good idea, as though 'going back' is a 'step backwards'.Although this may sometimes hold true, it certainly isn't always the case.Finding yourself in such a dilemma can cause a state of impasse or limbo where you really don’t know what to do for the best. This brings me to The Hanged Man card, a card that normally indicates the need to make some kind of self-sacrifice, or indicates a need for you to give someone or something up. We all know how very difficult this can be! ;- )
the love you can't have lasts the longest, feels the strongest, and hurts the most
Still feeling the pouring rain at 6:55 PM
Saturday, May 20, 2006
Michelangelo... Updating and Signing out
It's been a week since the play but I can still feel the repercussions up to now. The song, the lyrics, they're still stuck in my head. Sometimes, out of the blue, I just hum them. This really has an effect on me. Why not? It was my most daring performance on stage, shedding all dignity as I portayed the artist that is Michelangelo Buonarroti.
But enough of that, the play is over and it's all in the past. Period.
Just finished reading The Da Vinci Code for the fourth time. Strange though, I find their facts more appealing. Maybe this is due to the fact that I'm not exactly religous. Despite the strong counter evidences in the Da Vinci Code Deception, I'm not sure if I'm convinced. It just sounds all too appealing.
Anyway, a very unfortunate thing happened. The father of a very close friend of mine had a mild stroke. I couldn't help but remember the time when my Mom suffered a stroke and it was far from mild. She hasn't recovered even today. Right now, they need some blood donors for the bypass. I just pray (which is very rare) that everything will be ok. I wanted to help so badly that I even offered to be a donor myself. But sadly, I can't go to the hospital tomorrow because it's my brother's daughter's baptismal day and I'm the Godfather (sheesh events like these make me feel so old). I just hope that everything will be ok tomorrow.
the love you can't have lasts the longest, feels the strongest, and hurts the most
Still feeling the pouring rain at 10:26 PM
Sunday, May 14, 2006
My Readings as of now
how you feel about yourself now (The Hanged Man)
You feel a little confused and perhaps fearful because you sense or know that there is someone or something you need to give up to be able to move on. This self-sacrifice isn’t always clear - you may not even know quite what or whom you should give up. This is a time of passage from one phase of your life to another and The Hanged Man can signify a time of spiritual development too. Perhaps you need to try and look at things from a different perspective.
what you most want at this moment (Wheel Of Fortune)
The cards suggest Jessie, that what you most want at this time is a turning point in your life and positive change - well expect it now. Life will go up a gear or two and events will accelerate forward. Destiny is at play here - have you noticed a number of events that seem rather a coincidence? This is synchronicity, trust it and go with the flow.
your fears (The Sun)
You are afraid that things seem too good to be true, so much pleasure and joy - well enjoy it, sometimes we can be pleasantly surprised. If you have been unwell this is a time of rejuvenation and good health. Perhaps you are afraid that things won’t actually get better - have faith you are about to enter a happy and pleasurable time. The Sun heralds an ending to difficulties and a time to celebrate with friends and loved ones, a time of pleasure and good news around children or the conception or birth of a longed-for baby.
what is going for you (The Lovers)
New love and commitment will enter your life, even if there’s no one on the horizon - be prepared for a surprise. Throw caution to the wind and expect joyous and happy times ahead.
what is going against you (The Hierophant)You are simply struggling to conform to others expectations of you and everybody has an opinion of what you should do. Perhaps you are having a crisis of faith and are unsettled at a very spiritual level. Ask yourself who you really are? What is important to you? What makes you happy? Seek out advice or wise counsel if you wish, but accepting who you really are and going after what you want instead of what others want for you is the most important.
outcome (The Devil)
If your previous cards have been positive and your main consideration has been about a relationship then there’s a possibility of commitment, even a proposal of marriage. If this is not the case this a final opportunity for you to change course, because the temptation you are experiencing concerning a relationship, money or materialism or any other kind of addiction won’t lead to a happy ending. If you are feeling low in self-belief and self worth and doubt your abilities, don’t, have more confidence - its not too late to change direction.
the love you can't have lasts the longest, feels the strongest, and hurts the most
Still feeling the pouring rain at 9:00 PM
Friday, May 05, 2006
I can't believe that someone would actually benefit from my painful past o_0
Addison asked me awhile ago to give him a story about one of the Triggers of Memory. Fortunately for him, I have two; one for feeling good and one for feeling bad. Don't ask what it is. I just hope that he gets a good grade for this. And besides, I can test my writing skills for this:D
the love you can't have lasts the longest, feels the strongest, and hurts the most
Still feeling the pouring rain at 10:58 PM
Monday, May 01, 2006
Today is the end of the second week of my "cellphone-less" life. Quite peaceful really although I miss texting and all. One of these days, I'm gonna have to go to greenhills and get my cellphone fixed.
I'm officially stopping the drama in my life but that doesn't mean that I'm not allowed to contemplate and write poetry anymore. I'm just going to stop ranting about my black past, Spring wind, and all the metaphors that I created to describe my cursed life. From now on, I shall keep all my rants of myself or maybe create a different blog:D hahaha.
By the way, I already told her that I'm sorry although I would rather prefer if we would talk personally. I shall wait for her arrival and hope that I'm not too busy.
Oh Lord, grant me chastity but not yet... Grant me redemption but not yet...Wait 'til I'm worthy...Wait 'til I've proven myself...
the love you can't have lasts the longest, feels the strongest, and hurts the most
Still feeling the pouring rain at 1:59 AM
