"The greatest enemy you'll ever engage in your life is not lucifer but yourself"

Last night, I just had the most gruesome battle with my conscience. My demons of the past against my redeeming self. All the sides of my personality with their own desires, clashing together inside my mind, turning it into chaos with such force that it brought shivers upon my whole body. Somehow, my selfish side just took over me (again) after that very second that... but my will to change for the better would not have it and my promise to myself slapped me in the face for letting my selfishness take over again. Promise, Selfish, and Change were at it again...

Promise: Damn it Jessie!! You can't have it all!! She has a life too you know?
Selfish: You've been kind enough to deserve that kind of recognition Jessie. Demand your rightful place!!
Change: Oh shut up! Screw the recongnition! Screw the right place or whatever you call it. Intrinsic Excellence Jessie, remeber. Virtue and ethics. Why the hell have u been studying that if you won't apply it!!?

And they went on and on... I don't even want to mention the other characters.

And after I attained physical peace, they took the battle to my subconscious... to my dreams...

After I woke, it was then that I realized that the vile essence still lurks in me. It heats up whenever I feel insecure, forgotten, and...

Sorry if I had you worried last night Tin. Forgive a rambling fool. You deserve better...