I despised everything that the stereotype guy stand for... I hated the prying eyes of men at the sight of women, i hated the way they laughed and ridiculed emotions as a thing only for the females. I hated the insensitive, gym-aholic, car crazy stereotype guy itself... and I thank God that I'm not that kind of guy.. (well, except for insensitive type maybe because some people se me as tactless).

No matter what I do, I'm just not like them... I never got turned on at the pictures of FHM magazines (but I loved rerading the Bar room jokes and ladies confessions. So funny:p). I never liked to play basketball or billiards. I enjoyed sharing and talking, heart-to-heart talks with close friends. I loved to argue about the philosophies of life especially on the subject of love. I loved watching 'chick flicks' because maybe it satisfies my deep need for emotional stimulant. Does this make me queer?? Does this make me weird?? I wouldn't know...

So, I'm an emotional person, big deal...

I loved listening to people spill their hearts out no matter what emotions they were conjuring up from their very souls... I loved listenning to them while my brain goes on hyper mode, searching for the right words to comfort the tempest that screams deep inside them because of the pains brought by the realities of life.

I've always tried to be a nice guy... I wanted to be the nicest guy ever. I wanted to be the most trustworthy person that anyone can have as a friend. I wanted to be the perfect friend.. always there when you're down and always there to cheer you up. I was never really the stereotype kind of guy... I was always different...

But lately, ever since the first month of classes.. I was always engaged with hatred.. walking side by side with him as I try to survive my college life. this is what I called 'The politics of Block C'. But I don't want to do this anymore.. I dont want to hate and sneer at people behind my back... I just want all ofn this to be over... I don't want to bear grudges and talk about people behind their backs...

So I just want to say sorry to essy, nikki, chesca lou, martin, tin, cil, angelo, bea, mika, angie, rom, pico, enzo, and kevin. I just want to apologize for everything that I did, whether you know it or not. I never wanted any of this to happen. i was supposed to be neutral... I was supoosed to be the refferee. I shouldn't take sides nor should I participate in the fight. But I couldn't help myself... I just don't want to hate anymore... I just want to fix everything before I transfer to Block I.T. I don't want loose ends or past grudges... just want to fix everything up...